[Please:come with:stay]

I wash my thoughts,
I wash my tears,
I wash away 
And wash my fears.
I bring it down,
Just as myself,
I wash to dawn,
It disappears.


For you I wash,
I wash my gears.
Clean system.
No smiles. No tears.
As my empathy and love,
Just into dawn it disappears.
I'll be the best,
I'll wash it all away,
And you will, you will
[Please:come with:stay].

Reflection.

I open your book,
It has so many pages,
It turns and flips in its shape,
It constantly changes.
Just like the mirror of water,
Reflection of future and past,
Your time has so many ripples,
Like if none was the last.
Sometimes it's painful to read,
Sometimes it's soothing my mind,
But whenever I open, it shows me the ways
Myself I couldn't find.
I dive to reflect,
To discover my soul,
As I return to myself
And my thoughts stop to howl.
The depths of the darkness,
The stars of the sky,
I learn to detach from usual frames,
I'm learning to fly.

The fuel.

Love is selfish,
Love is cruel,
Burns like a fire,
Starts like a duel.
Might break your knees,
Might make you sweat,
The love are knives,
The love is a threat.
The pain is true,
You mend your parts together
With hope and glue.
Love is selfish,
Love is cruel,
The clash of force,
The red and the blue.
And explodes like a fuel.

Sign.

As embers turn into dust,
And thoughtful turns into rust,
I've breathed too many ways,
Year 20. Please cancel the days.

Sitting still on the same roof.
No sign of stars, I'm shining aloof.
The breath that was taken away,
Took a whole world,
Without a place for me to stay.

Intruder.

I'm irritated.
And I cannot grasp - why.
All I see is intruder in my space,
That I want to stand by.
An alien creature from a place,
That's far away, of an opposite race.
All I feel is anger.
I want to crush the glass.
I want to throw it at the wall,
And see how pieces of it fall,
Just like how scattered is my mind,
When I lack the understanding,
Am I faced and talked to
Or am I placed aside.

I am but a monster.

In this mist unveiling,
Through the hole in momentous feeling,
I am but a monster.
And time is my grave and my ceiling,
There is nothing the past can save,
There's so little the heart finds appealing.
And yet closer to candles I fade,
And last boat is already leaving.
In the sea of infinite feeling,
I am but a drowner,
And nothing is saved.
In this mist faunt and unveiling,
I confess,
My mind has misbehaved...

 

Growth.

In this breathing wind of cold,

She stood still, waiting for the fate to unfold,

Where the fear and dungeon's carpet lies,

Where the breath of freedom and the kindness dies.

-"Don't leave me here. I'm yet a trembling sprout of life."

-"It's what you need. You're a wolf, you will survive."