Rāda ziņas ar etiķeti dark. Rādīt visas ziņas
Rāda ziņas ar etiķeti dark. Rādīt visas ziņas

sestdiena, 2021. gada 24. jūlijs

Submerge

Feels like my wilderness has been killed somewhere,

Like everything is passing by,

My life, I'm catching nothing anymore,

Something in the distance burns, but it seems so small like firefly.

I imagine running barefoot through the woods,

I imagine listening to the drum of the oak,

Let my pain and waiting out, under the roots to soak

It's all just within my head and nothing happens. 

I waited, but nothing spoke. Is spirit dead,

My fear of death, just like a smoke, in the woods that wildfire swallows,

Under the pressure of blood dripping down my arms

Into branches as hallows,

Bow and turn, bow, head thrown back and slowly getting into feeling,

Magic under the omen, cast by the rot and the healing -

Death of the moss. The branch you cut and toss.

Blood drips down your arms and mine -

This is the song. That's our thunder named shrine.

Rejoice and dive into depth. Of the deepest fear, the dark, the screams.

The divine.







trešdiena, 2020. gada 2. septembris

Ritual.

Close my eyes when it's dark,
The moonlight's silence has eaten the spark
The dazzle that was up in the black skies,
Open my mouth, close your eyes.

The silence listens 
As you put the words back in,
Swallow the darkness,
A dazzling sin right in.

And I breathe the moonlit sky,
We used to crawl, but now we fly
I am here in this synapsis of minds
And now we die.

trešdiena, 2020. gada 5. februāris

I'm cursed.

How did I get here,
To this part where I'm drunk,
Listening to music,
While waiting to your voice's sound.
All I think about is you.
It's like a fucking curse I'm going through
And I have no clue of what I should do.
Why am I so lost at once.
Why I think of you.
What's the matter with my head,
When all I dream is you.
And heart burns,
Heart, I place in water. Blue.
I sink in,
And so do you.
Thunder I've always loved.
Do I fucking love?
I love you.

Will this hit you?
Yes, it will.
It won't make matters better,
No feelings have been neither, will they be left still.
No waves have silence.
No love has calm.
I wish for fire,
I wish to touch and kiss your palm.
Fuck me, I confess
With the faithful psalm.

piektdiena, 2019. gada 18. oktobris

I am but a monster.

In this mist unveiling,
Through the hole in momentous feeling,
I am but a monster.
And time is my grave and my ceiling,
There is nothing the past can save,
There's so little the heart finds appealing.
And yet closer to candles I fade,
And last boat is already leaving.
In the sea of infinite feeling,
I am but a drowner,
And nothing is saved.
In this mist faunt and unveiling,
I confess,
My mind has misbehaved...


 

ceturtdiena, 2019. gada 11. aprīlis

Trip.




It feels so free and so crazy.
It gives me life,
When it's not there


And when I look into my eyes,
In the mirror,
All I see is nobody there at
To stare


Before my consciousness left,
Eyes tried to see,
What I wanted so much there to be


What I lacked and what I missed,
Those things,
That weren't in the life for me


What else could do the favor to,
Make me forget the problems,
Leave me with no clue


Drugs, alcohol.
Pills, razors, glue.
What did I see, what's in my soul.
What captured me that through


Was it the need for living feeling?
Was it the need for some more time?
Or was it someone I was lacking,
Forever to be only mine?


What's life for others,
Were the drugs for me.
All that had sounded in my head:
I never was. I never am. And I will never be.


And sun will capture me in head,
Hallucinating, pretending to be dead


But who was there to be with me?
When I was lost. But truly free.


Was that the happiness to be?
Was that what I should do, it's me?
And every question in my head,
Had answer -


Baby,
You are dead.




(Made approximately in May 2017., posted first in June 7, 2017 on facebook, but never got here. It has a deep meaning and theme - drugs&alcoholism. Let me get this straight - I have never used drugs myself or had problems with alcohol, but my empathy and my experience seeing close people like that is the thing that leads to this movement against drug using. This photoset is basically portraying in slightly different way the thoughts of a person who used drugs. And the lethal outcome.
The most important message to learn is - you are important and you are unique to Earth and to yourself. Stay alive.)
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Photographer: Dezembers Photography (facebook)
Model&edit: me.


piektdiena, 2018. gada 2. februāris

And when I stepped out of the train,
I looked up in darkness, the light made a trail.
A snowfall.
I stood on the railway, amazed how it fades.
Train slipped through my bones.
Metallic and sharp are my Valentine's dates.