Beyond Thee.

 What has begun cannot be stopped

What is exhaled cannot be brought back

or inhaled 

Through our lungs that breathed polluted air of resurrection

In a garden with apple made

That gave you erection

Of life

Of decision

Of fate.

One mistake and one date

Against all humanity 

We won't fake our smiles

We won't fake our blood

My dear brother without a doubt

We are the sin

They attempt they fought

Our love is beyond the demise

Our vows beneath the rock they're hidden

Our shield of protection is lost

But with your eyes I'm so smitten.

For caring lost beyond words

My hearts deepest desire

Lets put our bodies against each other

And set this fucking World

On Fire.

My only True Path

My desire.

My Only Sin

My Desire.

My Only Wish

My Desire.

Oh set them beneath one tree

Oh set them beneath moans of unbeknownst 

Oh set them

On fire.

For the pearl to never see the light of day.

I want to run away with orcas

I want to wash away the lies

And all the burdens they all put around me

Like fishnets leave me for demise.

I am no fearful person

For I do not fear death

I've seeked and seeked beneath the ground

And digged

But instead of water and creatures they

Told to stay away

I was left there never to be found,

For the pearl to never see the light of day.

But when the sun lit their only living sky

They told me to never use my wings

Took together off, to fly.

And I watched them.

And I thought -

It wasn't foretold.

It was just a coincidence so bold...

And continued digging.

For they told me to do,

And I never dropped it

Until I do.

The Call was a lie.

They never wanted me

To fly.

And I looked up again.

All the dirt and ashes on my face.

A fallen angel?

Hiding in disgrace.

"What is wrong my girl"

Someone asked.

A teardrop reached my eye

I looked up

And I basked.

The lies and human nothingness

Was leaving.

And washed away, the songs of waves of shore

The nets off legs unweaving...

I'm weeping.

Was that all that land has offered

Sold as illusionary pleasure

While all we did - we suffered.

I unmade the ties.

And into sea threw out the lies.

With turtles I went away

And I saw the Old Ocean 

Large Blue Waters

And that was the last day.

Throw the dice.

I hate to be wrong, I hate to lose,

Life pours me lies, I pour some booze.

I wait and wait, I hate that feel, like

You're there, alive, but nothing's real.

You say I'll heal, when I am down,

I cut myself with my own crown,

I waited for the doom to pass,

And years ago I had more class.

Restrained myself, I put in chains,

With fire flowing through my veins,

It boils, it hurts and I blow up,

Each evening, there is nothing there for me to stop.

I look at the stars and I ask why,

And maybe, when there's time to fly,

It answers nothing, silent, closed,

Same feel, same old shit with people who ghost.

I strive to be me, then I strive to be nice,

A board game of masks

And I lost my dice.

You know, it hurts

Fuck you, with words

The fuck are you doing

Putting words in my mouth

If you wanted me to be away -

Then should have said so,

Not wasting my day

And my heart

Decay.

I want to paint my room fucking red.

I hate everything that does with feelings,

I hate everything that makes me cry.

I hate everything that gives me hope and reason,

And everything that makes me wanna die.

I hate all these things I'm feeling - 

And those that I don't understand.

For when I was stupidly thinking,

About clueless fucking you,

Instead of going to bed.

I want to paint my room fucking red.

To X

There is no hope,

There is no light.

Turn your back

And fucking fight.

Time.

Sometimes I just want the time to stop,

Somewhere where it was happy and everything was okay.

I'm sentimental. And I wish we never died in that golden light

I wish the good would forever stay.

I cry. And to empty skies I pray...

That today wouldn't be the lasting day.

The forest red.

 Am I too intense for you?

Too fierce, too much,

Throw of an axe, not a warm touch,

Full blown like a flame, not that of a match,

Am not quiet candle that crackles crisp,

I rather stay silent, but I am a whisp.

Do I break these thoughts that you have?

Of woman who painted is -

Of softness and friendly charm,

And my teeth - they only bring harm,

While foxes run through the woods,

Not appreciated of city's goods.

And I tackle these thoughts in a spin,

Who am I to get up and win.

I lost to all of these rules - you're all set,

Because in the end, I, the forest red,

Am commonly known as only a threat.

You fucking whore.

In this little world of yours,

Mind being fucked, you beg outdoors,

The clear wide space and sweet impression

Of latent whores. Repression.

As you flutter like a butterfly,

Somewhere low, somewhere high -

Throw the bullets in the sky, bitch,

Kiss me hard. I'll bite.

Your words make mind to cum,

Soul wants to fucking die.

Particle.

 You'll get recycled,

Like the stars, like the sky,

Once the particles are born, then the particles die.

The body dissolves,

Soul gets wings of a firefly.

Golden dust.

Fall into my wings,

Let the worries fall,

The tempest of the heart,

Light fume evades that all.

Evaporate in clouds, 

Of thought and crescent dream, 

The stars are getting heavy, 

Your eyelids close with golden beam.

An angel from the sky, it comes, 

And fades away with flow, 

Bringing end to worries, 

In the end of road to home:

-"Now you slowly go." 

The stardust covers lashes,

The feet embrace the snow...

Your heart and soul are silent,

The fingers reached the heaven's glow.

Dry.

In my head space

In my bubble.

Where the world doesn't

See the trouble.

Breathing my skin,

Tears vanished, thoughts deep right in,

I'm clueless, but I just take each thought

And pin and pin.

I am all flowers,

With water off, dried,

I swam like a fish in the water of words

But the water bulb lied.

Ritual.

Close my eyes when it's dark,

The moonlight's silence has eaten the spark

The dazzle that was up in the black skies,

Open my mouth, close your eyes.

The silence listens 

As you put the words back in,

Swallow the darkness,

A dazzling sin right in.

And I breathe the moonlit sky,

We used to crawl, but now we fly

I am here in this synapsis of minds

And now we die.